1. It’s been almost a month now since I moved to Toronto..I still miss Montreal. Change is the only constant in life..everything changes.. you change cities, you change countries, you age, external environment changes, your views change, society changes, people you love change……
Everytime there is change, sensitive people feel it..if you move from a place where you have spent some years and had a nice time, you feel bad and very nostaligic..But, in reality, you are feeling bad because once again life tells you that nothing is permanent. Somewhere, you feel the ultimate truth…that everything comes to an end ..
This fear of losing what you have is behind all our insecurities and loneliness..Every subconscious mind knows that one day we are going to lose life ..and all these small changes and losses remind us about that impending ultimate loss.. even if we know that it’s going to come after 40-50 years
Hey, am not being pessimistic..infact, understanding these fears could only lead to more peace of mind and the realization that we should live life to the fullest and enjoy every second of it…
And, I never feel that Iam going away from that place or person for ever..I may not live there anymore, but I can always visit it again as long as Iam alive. Why should I feel that any place is no longer mine..So, Montreal, Iam with you always. Also, no matter where you are, if you are smiling and positive, you will find cool people everywhere
Talking of Toronto, it doesnt seem as warm as friendly as Montreal..it’s more professional..very much like New York..infact parts of downtown here are exactly like Times Square in NY..
I also have a theory that citiies which dont have much of a history lack souls ..Toronto is a relatively new city..it was mostly developed in last 20-30 years..
Montreal came into existence in 16th century when French first landed there..over the centuries it has seen many changes and now epitomizes a perfect combination of Europe and North America..at one point, it was the second most important city of North America after New York..it was biggest financial capital after NY..1976 Olympics were held in Montreal..
Over the years, due to many factors, it lost it’s prime place to Toronto..
2. Last week , I had a showdown with my parents on the phone for the umpteenth time over the same reason. Reason? The same old shit..Why am not agreeing to get Married!!!!!!
Common guys, give me a break..it’s my life..I just dont feel like thinking about it at this point of time or may be, I just dont want to get married..May be, Iam not normal..whatever, but it’s me..
It’s my life, my body, my feelings..
Why they think that marriage is like finding a Job or buying a house..
Right now, I am more concerned in achieving my goals…I have to know myself more..
But they dont understand…
Everytime they promise that they wont touch the issue again ..but the very next week, especially my mother, after couple of pleasanteries and “idhar udhar ki baaten”, says ” rajat, jo tere to 3 saal chota hai, got engaged ” And then she says, ” I was just informing you “..
Give me a break ..
